My Walk With Jesus

Ever started your conversation with God with "I miss you..." ? Well I have. Many times. But every time I say that, I immediately realize that I'm kind of complaining about something that's actually my fault.  Let me explain...

There's always so much going on... always. Doesn't matter what time of year it is or how many projects are going on at work, let's face it, we've all grown accustomed to live a life where "being busy" has become the default state. Perhaps, that's one reason why taking time out for prayer and devotion becomes difficult. But if you are anything like me you can perhaps think of many times when you had the opportunity and yet you didn't use it to spend some quality time with God. So, due to this honest observation about my life, it is clear to me that the reason I have missed spending time with God is not His absence, rather it is my reluctance. So when I say "I miss you.." to God, it's not a complaint, it's a confession.

But how does God respond to our "I miss you"... Does He get upset and use this moment of realization to remind us of how bad we have been? I don't think so. I sincerely believe that God's response is usually "I've missed you too". Why do I say this? Because God desires for us to communicate with Him and it hurts Him when we don't. Now let me be clear here. I'm not suggesting that our lack of prayer and failure to find time for God, robs Him of His glory and causes some relational need in Him to be unfulfilled. God is not dependant on us for any sort of emotional fulfillment. God doesn't need us. But, He wants us. A desire so saturated with love that He was willing to send His only Son to die for us. A love so great that He seems to be persecuted when His people are persecuted. A kind of love, lavished upon us, that we get to be called the children of God. It's due to this love, that the Bible tells us that it is possible to grieve His Spirit and it is due to this, that I feel God would tell us "I've missed you too".

So humbling, so marvellous, so comforting. Paul informs us in his letter to the Romans that God's kindness is meant to lead us towards repentance. I don't think this is a hidden agenda. It's just a natural response when you understand more of His love and grace in your life. God saying "I've missed you too"confronts and comforts me at the same time. Makes me realize the foolishness of not spending time with Him and makes me feel totally at peace because I am now in His presence. Another one of the many paradoxical things that only God is able to do in my life.

So here's how this post ends. I have about 45 more minutes that I'll be sitting at this coffee shop (yes, Tim Horton's it is). Time I would usually use to browse through Facebook or Twitter or do some of the other stuff that makes me "busy". But instead of all that, I'm gonna go chill with God. Tell Jesus how much I've missed Him, that I'm sorry for it and then discuss our walk together. Talk about some places we've been and maybe get foresight into some places we will be.

You took time to read this post, which means perhaps you're just browsing as well. Take a break. Go tell Jesus, you've missed Him. Perhaps, it'll be the first time you've consciously said "Hi" to Him. Either way, He's waiting to say "I've missed you too...".